Sunday, December 25, 2016

Christmas: The Aftermath

Merry Christmas! 

I hope you all got what you asked for and enjoyed your time with family and friends. 
I had a fantastic day and ate way too much food.  However, as the day wore on it became apparent that I was a sick monkey.  Yeah this sucks. 

I didn't put a cold on my wish list for Santa and I am all congested and snotty and miserable.  Oh and did I mention that I have to work tomorrow?  Yeah I am already over it.  I am ready for a day off to recover from this crap as well as  from Christmas itself. 

I will hopefully have a blog post with more substance for you tomorrow or it may wait until Tuesday.. I haven't decided yet. 

For now... Good night all!!!

Load of warm fuzzies for you!!!!


Saturday, December 24, 2016

Christmas Eve at Casa Caedy

It is Christmas Eve and everyone is relaxing and just enjoying themselves. 

Bit is currently playing Wipe Out on the Wii and the puppies are playing and just being themselves.  Everyone is excited to open presents tomorrow.  I have already opened one from my roommate's mom and I am so in love with my new coloring book and cardigan.  No.  Seriously I am in love with it. 

I have been up since 430 am because I had to work this morning.  I got to wear my Grinch shirt and my antlers.  I chose the antlers over the Minnie Mouse hat because antlers.  You can see the pic below.  I also am in love with my little silver tree. 

Alright,  time for more Wipe Out. 

Merry Christmas!!!!

Friday, December 23, 2016

What the What?

This is pretty much me staring the end of 2016 in the face.   No, seriously.  I literally have no chill for anything else to go wrong this close to the end of the year.  None whatsoever.  Rest assured, I am fully intending on entering 2017 with positivity and good thoughts.  I have every intention of crossing several things off my bucket list next year, as well as ensuring that my year is filled with productivity, positivity, and appreciation of self. 

Too long have I found myself in situations where I have had to say no, however, instead of being willing to put my own well being ahead of others I agree to whatever it is.  Which ultimately leads to me eventually looking at said thing as an obligation and no longer an enjoyment.  I've done this with writing more times than I can count, and I know there are others who can handle excessive loads for writing, be it reviews, or stories, or other such things and I ultimately end up burning myself out and find no enjoyment in the things that I love.  This is something that will be changing in the coming year.  I need to learn to say no to things that put my own mental well-being at risk.  I do not want to get burnt out on the things that I love, and at the same time I want to push my creative boundaries.  

Several other things will be happening that I may or may not touch on in future blogs.  For now, just know that several of the things that are going to be happening are for the benefit of my own physical and mental well being, and I am looking forward to taking these steps and rejuvenating myself in the coming year.  It's just a matter of finding those who will uplift me and support me in the things that I am attempting to do for myself. 

Normally I would reserve blog posts like this for Sunday Reflections - yes, there will be a full revision of the blog schedule going up at the start of the year.  There will be some changes, removal of a few things, addition of a few things, all of it will be made known at the start of the year.  

Now, I think I'm going to go crank up some Metallica - Moth Into Flame and dye my hair a very, very pretty deep burgundy...or I'll wait because I just cut my hand attempting to get into my chocolate orange.  Yeah, apparently this is the story of my life, either way I've got Metallica in my headphones.  

Lots of love..


Wednesday, December 21, 2016

Productivity and I

This has pretty much been the mantra for my week thus far.  It's been hella busy with Christmas coming up this week, my meditation for the Solstice last night, with morning devotions at sunrise, coupled with the fact that my neuropathy has been kicked into high fucking gear for the last two days (go figure my two days off when I have to get just about EVERYTHING done I spend them in and out of my brace).  

I have still managed to actually get a few things crossed off my to-do list which makes my bujo happy.  I've even started working on some 2017 spreads.  I still have to refilm my initial youtube video because the quality of the first one was absolute shit because the lighting in my house sucks.  

I still have quite a few more things to get done to be completely caught up and ready for the new year - reviews, well those are a laughable thing and I will not be caught up in the 10 days we have left of I'll ultimately get to those come January considering I intend on taking this weekend off from the blog and spending time with family - there will probably be a holiday haul video and post here on the blog and my youtube channel sometime on Sunday or Monday...depending on when I manage to get some time off to film it (or don't feel like death warmed over after work).  

In the mean time, I am attempting to catch up on my pen pal letters - I have 6 that I'm behind on and I can effectively focus on those despite the pain - because typing actually makes things worse so I'm probably going to end this blog post here. 

Have a good evening and I'll see you later this week! 

Blessed Solstice, 

Sunday, December 18, 2016

Sunday Reflections: One Pulse

Six months and six days ago forty-nine souls were taken from this world during a night of revelry, laughter, and dancing.  Six months and six days ago my world was torn apart as I learned the fate of friends who had been among those slain by someone whose heart had been filled with hatred.  

It has taken me six months and six days to get to this point, to any point that I can look at the list of victims - the names of strangers and the names of those that I know.  Six months and six days until I could bring myself to voice them without the risk of breaking down.  Six months and six days until I could bring myself to create this lasting memory of these forty-nine souls in something that is most precious to me - my Bullet Journal.  This spread was my catharsis.  This spread was an emotional roller coaster for me.  I needed to do this for my own mental stability when it comes to this tragedy.  

I had finally gotten a chance to visit Pulse when I was in Orlando this past September.  I have an abundance of pictures of the memorials that were put up.  I cried, I smiled, I loved the outpouring of love that has come from the community - the allies and the members of the LGBT community who frequented Pulse.  The outpouring was something that warmed my heart and made this tragedy just a little bit easier to bear - however, something of the magnitude that this was is not something that will simply "go away" or be "forgotten" over time.  I miss the atmosphere, the safe place that was Pulse even though I'd never gone as often as I'd liked to. 

To those families who are celebrating this holiday season without their loved ones, my heart breaks for you.  They will be missed.  They will be remembered.  These souls cannot and will not be forgotten.  

Sunday, December 11, 2016

Adventures in Building

Evening lovelies!!!

This weekend has been filled with all manner of adventures!

Company visiting which is always fun! Especially when it is my bestie!!! My person visiting always makes me happy, and the best part is there was the exchanging of Christmas gifts. I have a new bento box, which I cannot use at work because I work with idiots who would throw my lunch away and to be honest I would have to kill someone for tossing my expensive bento boxes. I now have two good ones: my happy animals froggy, and my Rilakuma one that I just got for Christmas.

I also have two new bookcases, one for me and one for my roommate. I spent last night with my bestie putting them together and starting to move furniture around to ensure that everything fits in. I even spent another 4 hours this morning tackling everything that I didn't get done before I went to bed at 2am. I love how I have everything set up and I just need a few more things to actually have things as I want them.

I also have some of my favorite Happy Meal toys displayed one the bookcase and my desk. I also got this week's bullet journal spread done. I only have 2 more spreads left to do for this year and that makes me sad.

How was your weekend?

Wednesday, December 7, 2016

Random Thoughts with Caedy

Okay, so the image says a lot about what has been on my mind for a while now.  I absolutely am over and done with my job and am in the process of looking for a new one, but I am so discouraged. I know that it will take time and I know that a good job or a better job won't just fall into my lap.

However, we have a few new stores opening up within the next 6 months and I am hoping that I can start working there and leave my current job because I don't find any joy in being there and I dread going there and the potential anxiety attacks that could come during any shift. Not to mention that I am over and one with the petty drama and bullshit that I have to deal with. Not to mention essentially being barred from a position that I am strongest in because of a medical issue that keeps me from working with cleaning chemicals.

I am staying afloat but there are days that are more difficult than others and I am working on getting some of the help that I need.

I would apologize for the negativity but this is something that I needed to get out of my system.

Now I am going to go meditate and relax for bed.

Lots of love,

Friday, December 2, 2016

This is My December...December 2016

I am a failure. 
Or at least a horrible procrastinator, which is most likely why I end up so behind on EVERYTHING.  I have - no lie - planned out a review schedule for pretty much ALL of the books I've read in 2016 FOUR TIMES so far this year, and have I managed to actually make any headway into my reviews? No..why would I actually stick to the plan? Oh yeah...because depression and anxiety are a pain in my arse and most of my work usually gets caught up on the good days because I'm absolutely 100% useless on the bad days when my attention span is pretty much non-existent.  

I know I've said this many, many times in the past, however I am actually going to put so much effort into working on getting things back to where they need to be for this blog.  I may also be changing quite a few things, and as well as the books give you a bit more insight into who I am.  There may be a name change to something other than Confessions of a Bibliophile, but I am not a hundred percent certain on that yet.  However, I am certain that there is a lot more that I want to share with you and to do that, there needs to be some changes.  

You may start seeing changes around here as early as Sunday of this week, but we'll see what happens and what manner of curve balls life will be throwing at me - because it has a tendency to kick me when I'm down.  

I do however have this coming week's book of the week planned out, I just have to get the post written up.  I have a couple week's worth of Top 10 Tuesday.  I also have some Wish List Wednesdays planned out.  What's on My Kindle? I've 2-3 of those planned out for this month.  I also have a few reviews that I am working on (a couple of them are author requested reviews) and those will hopefully be going up within the next week or so.  

I am also in the process of starting to train for my first ever 5k - I usually don't run.  However, I will be starting the Couch to 5k running system, to start getting myself 5k ready before a local 5k in February.  I'm so excited and I'm doing this more for me than anything else, because I know this will help me get in shape, and it gives me another reason to get off my butt and stop sitting all day every day in front of my computer.

I think that's all I have for you right now, so get ready for some awesome changes and loads more info about me coming at you.  

I am also considering tossing up some Youtube videos and if that happens trust me, you all will be alerted to this new development! 

Lots of love,